It's time

My dear child… you are being tested- your strength, your conviction, your desire.  Are you all in? For this precious life you have been given? Are you game? Or are you just playing at all of it?  This life is not in vain, it is but a mere moment in time and you are wasting it.  It will leave you just as quickly as it came.  The people you love will leave, the places you love will no longer be or you will no longer be in them.  The gifts will have been wasted.  The clock is ticking and yet here you remain, still questioning, still refusing to see what is right in front of you.  Stop being scared- of the intensity, of the pain.  Enjoy it.  It is what makes you feel alive.  It is what you want.  All of it isn’t it? Why do you keep thinking like before when you know better now?  You are not being punished, you have not been forgotten or abandoned.  I see you.  But do you see me? Do you see the life I have gifted you? Do you see the gifts and the blessings and the magic? Time is running out and you keep going around in circles.  It is time.  To move forward, to leave your old ways of thinking and perceiving, to step into your life and yourself fully.

This is what you have.  Acknowledge it, see it, let it in.  And with it you will see the light.  You will learn how to sift through the dark sand for those small diamonds that have been there all along.  Learn the lessons but move on please! Stop being stuck in the same place by your own choosing.  Your path is open.  Your feet are light.  You just have to choose and take the next step.  And then the next.  Choose joy. Choose what feels good.  Choose love.  Choose rest.  Choose less.  Choose beauty.  And surround yourself with all of this. Shower yourself in excess by all of this so when the darkness comes you have cultivated enough presence with the light that you will not lose your way again.  Never again.  I love you but I am getting impatient.  The path is open, the way is lit, there are no obstacles, except your own desire to remain where you are.